notes from the girl next door

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Teenagers and rambling

why are teenagers so difficult these days?

i know i sound like my parents, and their parents before them... but god in heaven, why oh why are they so difficult? one would think through better genetic engineering we should be able to produce a generation of teenagers without the typical teenage problems and woes, instead i'm afraid that our instant gratification society has produced a generation of hopelessly whiny, self absorbed brats. i should know, somehow i have produced two of them.

"spanking is bad, spanking is wrong. hitting your child only teaches them that it's okay to hit to solve problems"

i never should have bought into that crap. my parents spanked me at times and i didn't grow up resorting to violence and becoming some serial killer. and i was raised by a man who had been physically abused as a child, never once did he abuse me, the cycle was broken. so why did i buy that junk about not spanking? now i have a 13 year old who is taller than i am and is not phased at all by anything i do or say because other than a few swats in toddlerhood, she has never been spanked. i probably should have spanked her more. time out obviously had no effect at all. neither did grounding or taking her things away from her. now i am paying for my poor parenting decisions because i have a disrepectful child who spews the most hateful bile "i wish you were dead" "i hate you" "shut up ... you're stupid" "you bitch"

it's all verbal abuse. she didn't learn that in this house. she learned that at other houses and applies it here. and she has no way to channel her anger into anything productive. i think that serious counseling is in order.

she's so angry at the world she doesn't know what she's angry at. and unfortunately she takes it all out on me, i'm her target of choice. sometimes i think that time away from me would do her some good. maybe i should check into a summer camp building houses for the homeless? that's what she needs to do to teach her that her life isn't so bad.

why can't you be a prophet in your own land?
in my job i tell people how to fix these problems all the time. i fix these problems all the time.

in other news ...

it's a long weekend and i'm a little down in the mouth because i should be with my boyfriend this weekend for his birthday and i'm not. and that makes me really sad. i've been keeping busy. yesterday i tried to run away from it by being on the move all day. today i tried to busy myself out not to think about it. tomorrow will be a race. a race to get things done. i'll be on the move in the morning... i have to get up and get in the shower and get ready to go to the doctor. then i want to get my haircut. i need to come home and start baking some cookies for my sweet boyfriend and while those are baking i can do some work from work.

i'm sure i can get it all done. i am after all, superwoman.

i'm watching celebrity fit club and i have to say, kelly lebrock looks good with a big ass.
say what you will but i think big asses are sexy.
maybe because i have a little junk in the trunk?

that was totally off topic, i know.
but thinking about my boyfriend gets my that way.

he's been very good at being very bad lately.

he never fails to surprise me.
he surprised me at christmas with the most beautiful rubies and incredible mp3 player.
he surprised me new year's eve with the most sexy,daring, incredible night ever. it was one of those nights that i always imagined i might have. i did something i thought i might do someday but never really believed it would happen. you know that kind of thing? i danced with two sexy hot girls much younger than me in a bar and i loved it. and he loved it. he had every boyfriend's dream and i got to have a dream evening with him.

why can't i just be there tonight ?
why must airlines be so difficult about pricing their tickets?

oh well ... i'm rambling and i have to get up early tomorrow

night kids

happy days are getting longer week eve



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