tangents ... and soon

in a little while i will be disconnected from the internet
*gasp*
it's okay ... it's only going to be for a little while, they are coming to do the cable tomorrow...
so i will be faster, stronger, more powerful than before.
why do i sound like the 6 million dollar man?

this has been a hard week, in so many ways, it's just been wrong.
work has drained me, physically, emotionally, and mentally. i'm having a problem understanding idiocy. i think people who are non idiots generally have that problem. we can't understand and we find it difficult to function... and my problem is i get frustrated, angry and then i lose it, followed by a period of feeling blue because i can't beat the idiot.

i swear all of america must follow the peter principle.

and you know i've found after having 2 successful professional careers and a host of other jobs that every job has a certain degree of bullshit, you just have to figure out what degree you can tolerate. i think i've reached bullshit saturation level.

by the way,
do you think i'm mentally ill because of the amount of peroxide that was poured into my ears as a child ? my mother cleaned our ears like people clean their dogs' ears. we would lay down with our head in her lap on a folded up towel and she would put drops of hydrogen peroxide in our ears and let it bubble up all the wax and gunk. it was strange. like having alka seltzer in your ear. then she would clean it with a q-tip (which stands for "quality" tip, by the way) and she would have us flip over and do the other ear. so i wonder how much of that peroxide got into my brain. but it doesn't matter now i guess since they use it to purify our drinking water.

why am i off like this?

oh yeah
i want my boy.
i want him now.
i need to see him and take care of him and love him all up.
and i need the same.

mutual footrubs are in order here.
soon dammit.