halcyon days

halcyon days
these are the days i love you
endless days
of kiss hushed whispers
sunshine filtering through the blinds
on your skin so fair and fine
these are the days ...
these are the days you love me
endless moments
and the changing looks upon your face
words on your lips
and the meaning is for me alone
these are the days...
we live for alone
halcyon days.

ode
through the complications
motivations
extrications
here we are
come this far ...
don't you know
how i feel by now?
i love you
i could sit for hours
keyboard right here
journal and pen in hand
the stars could be my chalkboard
and what would i say?
something so simple
those words you already know
i love you.

gardener of dreams
moment by moment
hour by hour
i've secreted them away
those little dreams
and only he knows them each and every one.
pieces of my soul tucked into my sock drawer
little scraps of paper peppered with the wishes
of what i want to be
forgetting all that once was.
there is no future in the past
and no past in the future
there is no love that can last
if we let goodbye go on forever...
all my little dreams
my little girl wishes, big girl needs
he knows the difference
and if they were all flowers
he'd be the gardener of all my dreams.

sometimes it hits me all at once how incredibly lucky i am to be loved by this man. and i don't know what i ever did on this earth to deserve this incredible good fortune. not that it was easy to get here... not that it was easy to get to where we are and not that the road ahead isn't still a long one. but we are where we are, despite the world at large.

sometimes and i don't even understand why, my eyes fill up with tears with the emotion of all of it. and it's an emotion i don't even know how to explain. it's joy and it's happiness and it's a whole bunch of other things, it's the deep feeling of knowing that now that i've lived with him, i would never want to live without him.

all in.
it's just all in.
peace.