done with that

today was the day i did it.
i spoke those words and there is no going back now.
and i don't want to go back. not even a backwards glance. not this girl.
i'm looking straight ahead with eyes wide open and i know what i want in this life.
and today i removed the biggest obstacle in my way of getting it.

it went well i think. as well as i could have hoped. i don't need to call my psychiatrist or anything, i'm not in need of medication. and for the first time in months i don't have a headache and i don't have a sour stomach at this time of night. for the first time ever i feel like i can just lay my head down and sleep.

i can sleep without worry and fear i think.
i'm blocking my door tonight just to be on the safe side, blocking it so nobody can open it or i can at least hear them if they try to open it. i don't know if i will have any problems tonight or not. i don't think i will, but it never hurts to be safe.

i'm sleepy and i'm tired and it's been a very long day.
but it's been a good day and it's been a day where i got the one thing i needed accomplished done. so its all good.... peace