fortune, oh fortune
fortune tellers and charismatic pentecostal preachers both do the same thing to me, they make me weep. i'm impressionable. i mean it's could be because my soul is open and anything special happened. it just happens to be that the last time i saw either a fortune teller or a pentecostal preacher i was in just the right place emotionally to weep when given an outlet of a centimeter. this is the reason i both want to go to a voodoo ceremony and yet at the same time am terrified to even be witness to one.
i have been to many a witch and psychic.
i have been to many a collared priest and non collared preacher.
some have been helpful and some have been not.
and still i get the same result, i wept.
i wept in salem when i finally got to see the witch who told me that the man i thought would break my heart, would indeed break it and break it soon. (she was right, and i knew it anyway because he wasn't right and i wasn't right and the whole thing wasn't right)
how did she even know he was married?
i think it's me maybe.
i give too much away?
i cried when diane, the psychic cajun sister told me that i give too much to too many people. and i wondered how she knew that a man i had trusted would betray me and soon. (could it be they tell that to every woman because in a high percentage of cases it's true or possibly true?)
i'm sure some will argue it's a con.
argue what you will.
they say religion is a con too, and if so then it's one of the oldest ones going.
so i started reading my own fortune a long time ago, somewhere around 20 years i guess. and i am amazingly accurate at it, but again it's all an interpretation of cards ...
but i do believe in them, i do believe that sometimes those little cards can give you a clue of what's to come. and after reading my fortune tonight, i'm certain of it.
it revealed 3 things i already knew
that the current situation was the coming and going of misfortune and unrest
that my fears are basically a fear of the unknown in myself and a fear of discord
and that my hopes are for great haste, great hopes, great love, letters of love, and a journey by air.
the final outcome card, how appropriate, the hanged man, whose interpretation reads:
"In spiritual matters, wisdom, prophetic power. A pause in one's life, suspended decisions. Surrender leads to the transformation of the personality. Material temptation is conquered."
if you take that card into consideration with my other cards, it means that at the end of this divorce, at the end of all this change, i will have a break in my life where i will have some peace. and it also means if i can survive it intact, which i will, i will be the stronger for it because i will have learned to live without those "things" we all think we need so much.
i feel all the better for having read my fortune tonight.
i've been wanting to do it and putting it off because i've been wondering, just what would the cards say?
and did the boy come into the cards ?
of course he did.
he was the card that covered mine
a man with a message, an invitation, a proposition...
i'm going to bed happy now, and i'm not going to think much about tomorrow.
i feel pretty secure with the future.
i have been to many a witch and psychic.
i have been to many a collared priest and non collared preacher.
some have been helpful and some have been not.
and still i get the same result, i wept.
i wept in salem when i finally got to see the witch who told me that the man i thought would break my heart, would indeed break it and break it soon. (she was right, and i knew it anyway because he wasn't right and i wasn't right and the whole thing wasn't right)
how did she even know he was married?
i think it's me maybe.
i give too much away?
i cried when diane, the psychic cajun sister told me that i give too much to too many people. and i wondered how she knew that a man i had trusted would betray me and soon. (could it be they tell that to every woman because in a high percentage of cases it's true or possibly true?)
i'm sure some will argue it's a con.
argue what you will.
they say religion is a con too, and if so then it's one of the oldest ones going.
so i started reading my own fortune a long time ago, somewhere around 20 years i guess. and i am amazingly accurate at it, but again it's all an interpretation of cards ...
but i do believe in them, i do believe that sometimes those little cards can give you a clue of what's to come. and after reading my fortune tonight, i'm certain of it.
it revealed 3 things i already knew
that the current situation was the coming and going of misfortune and unrest
that my fears are basically a fear of the unknown in myself and a fear of discord
and that my hopes are for great haste, great hopes, great love, letters of love, and a journey by air.
the final outcome card, how appropriate, the hanged man, whose interpretation reads:
"In spiritual matters, wisdom, prophetic power. A pause in one's life, suspended decisions. Surrender leads to the transformation of the personality. Material temptation is conquered."
if you take that card into consideration with my other cards, it means that at the end of this divorce, at the end of all this change, i will have a break in my life where i will have some peace. and it also means if i can survive it intact, which i will, i will be the stronger for it because i will have learned to live without those "things" we all think we need so much.
i feel all the better for having read my fortune tonight.
i've been wanting to do it and putting it off because i've been wondering, just what would the cards say?
and did the boy come into the cards ?
of course he did.
he was the card that covered mine
a man with a message, an invitation, a proposition...
i'm going to bed happy now, and i'm not going to think much about tomorrow.
i feel pretty secure with the future.
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