so it's raining ... so what :)

it's raining here again today. which is highly odd since i don't think the forecast called for rain, but then again, i wouldn't know because i don't really watch the news.

i am a total anti-news person.
no, i don't prefer to live in a hole underneath the ground, but really, sometimes i just can't handle the stupidity and tragedy that makes up my local news. so unless i'm going to make the news or someone i know is going to be part of the newscast, i don't tune in. does that make me a bad citizen? i don't think so. i will often read the news on the internet and then decide what is newsworthy for myself, i don't like the bobble heads they have reporting it on tv.

so yeah, rain.
i actually love rainy days, especially if i don't have to go anywhere and do anything. but today i have to go out and take mom out for a little while. she has a list of things she needs and wants to do. here's a little bit of information for you, when your parents become dependent on you to get around you very quickly find out what it was like for them when you were a kid and needed to be carted around all the time. and there really is no way of saying "no". yes it can be put off for a day or maybe two, but there is no way of saying "no". and really, i don't want to say no. i owe my mom a lot and i'm glad she's here. so instead of pissing and moaning about going out and running errands that i really don't have time for because i need to be working on the house instead, i'm thankfully going to do what she asks me to do because i'm grateful she's here as it wasn't too awfully long ago it might not have turned out that way.

so big deal.
i may not get as much done on the house as i would like today.
but you know ... i'm feeling strong enough that i can cut myself a little slack and not beat myself up because i can't stick to this schedule minute by minute. and damn, that is a very, very good thing.

last night before bed i had two specific tasks that i meant to get done, actually the boy kind of told me to get them done (he would make such a cute dom if that's the relationship we were going for, because he's so fucking hot when he gets bossy) anyway, i got one of the tasks done, which was to write a story about all those little naughty things that i was craving so very badly yesterday. the other task was to get myself off after i got myself all worked up... well no such luck (laughs hysterically) i got myself all worked up and then promptly fell asleep the minute my head hit the pillow. that's the third night in a row i've gotten all worked up before bed and fell asleep before i could achieve pronounced sexual bliss. perhaps i need to work on these things in the morning? the only problem with that is i like to get my groove on when i'm fully awake and can enjoy it. now wouldn't that be great? if the only problem in my life were when i was going to get off?

i think that's great :)
i think that may be a goal to work towards someday... where the only question on my mind is when is the best time of day to get my groove on.

but right now i've got a good solid 2 hour block of time to get some more packing and cleaning done before i take mom out and i'm feeling pretty good about what i can get done in that time!

peace everybody ...
and remember just because it's raining, doesn't mean it has to be a sad day :)